I do like studying but what makes my process difficult is I am taught the bits of basics, abc, haphazardly, so I need to figure the basics out myself from various resources which consumes extra time, then do the assignments which is based on xyz (which i must stress is not much related to abc). This time consumption times 4 in only 15 weeks. But when I figure out assignments, there is immense inexplicable satisfaction.
So, 15 weeks, 4 courses, 24 assignments, 4 projects, 8 exams, research, commute, 2 shifts per week, internship search, job search, grocery shopping(even online is a pain). Amidst all this kitchen also takes time, buying food takes extra extra time. The schedule is tight and makes it hard for me. I know everyone faces these situations but I feel a bit too pressed probably because of the gap.
People in my class go on bathroom breaks in one hour exam to copy, which I will never do in my life. Their copying does not hurt me but what hurts is eventually they are the ones who are be preferred based on the grades for jobs/research, further studies. I do not know how far I can go on in this country being honest, not cheating. I hope there are people who appreciate honesty.
I hope I sail through.